What can i say?

My bestfriend took me camping the past 3 days
wow it was just what i needed for real!!
it really got my mind off my ex.
we went swimming everyday in the lake
the water was cool and relaxing
it was tons of fun
Her family is just so diffrent from mine
they laugh together and make jokes and eat all at the same time
and they talk to us. its werid. but i like it
and today as we were getting ready to leave a boy he texted me
someone i met the same way as i met my ex allen.
summer gym.
his name was kelly
he was a swimmer.
and used to like him and well kinda did
now i asked if he liked me like like liked me
he said ya.
who knows what the future holds?
today was ok but what will happen tommorrow?

Writer's Block: Take a (second) chance on me

Have you ever given a friend or partner a second chance? What were the consequences? Any regrets?

yes, i thought this girl was my best friend.. well she was until we got into fights. things started to crumble when i started dating a guy she didnt like we were all hanging out and she got really whiney and i said stop acting like that or go home.she went home and started a fwd message telling the whole school we were dating....i forgave her until another fight where she told everyone i had sent naked pictures out..not true..after a long time i just forgave her last weekish until she told my now ex bf i was cheating on him which i hadn't at all. I relize now if i wouldn't have forgave her in the first place none of this would have happend. sometimes you just cant forgive someone for hurting you

i thought he was great

until last night, he ended it said we should brake up until we had more time for each other? whats that mean? He the one thats alwasy busy with everything! Football everyday then basketball at night. I'm always up for hanging out but HE never has time. No, im not mad but im sad that he turned into everthing he said he wouldn't be. I may be 14  and not really know what love is but i can feel heart break which is what is going on now. We might not have dated even a full month(3days away from it) but i really like him. He was so sweet and everytime i got a text from him my eyes lit up and a smile apeared on my face. I feel hollow inside. Things were starting to get better too. Over the past 2 tah 3 years i have bulit walls not just around my heart but around everything that is normal i can hold on too. Which there isn't much i dont have a normal life or a normal family...at all. I maybe just be 14 but i know more then any 14 year old should ever have to know..And well he started to make me smile again because honestly it used to be really hard to smile and im not kidding it was so hard at times when i couldnt smile i was just start to cry beacuse i couldnt get one. i wonder what tommorrow holds?
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